I just got out two days ago. Been doing some heavy painting and picture taking. I will try and post soon. But an update on life. I was in a treatment center and i basically tried to kill myself, stopped eating. I didn't know where i was half the time because i just zoned out into another world...It was weird. Hours would go by and I would be so closed off I would "wake-up" suddenly aware. Well, anyway, the treatment center called the police on me I was arrested...the cop was extremely mean and harsh. He asked to see my wrists...there are scars of course, its not the first time i wanted to kill myself. THen he made me stand up as I swayed and everything was blurry. I cried, then got over it. Driven 45 minutes to some hospital I am still not sure of in the back of a cop car. I have bruises everywhere. My wrists are bruised from the cuffs, my inside of my elbows from getting my blood drawn. I was put in a closed room with a two inch wide window, in paper clothes...The released me later...a long ass time later into whatever city i was in, i have no clue. but i am back in spokane now. Still utterly nhappy. Actually m ore unhappy. I found the reason they called the cops, they found razors in my room. Here is the thing, i brought none, bought some on an outting at walgreens and they were locked up. I never had razored. Someone planted them...I want to go back because there is no way i can live without help. I just dont want to